Some of my poetry.

Untitled 2006



Sympathies for your death

Flowers on your mock grave

The darkness envelops me

While you are nonchalant

Staring, the silence

By the gates of our pain

My anger releases a rueful spirit

My savior watches in anticipation

The written book goes incomplete

As the gods refuse you

And you furiously claw to

Hang on to some sort of meaning

But its all death and rebirth

Perhaps your next life cycle

Will be nicer

My sadness turned to HATE

Anger has consumed my being

And you have gotten your reward

An existence without ME.



HLL

12/18/06

Blemished Tears







Bitter taste of my tears



Intermingled with your pain



While another one awaits



For a love that will never arrive



The only consistent emotion



Is anguish



The sparkle in your eyes



Has long since dissipated



Guilt wears on



And the only thing your love has provided



Is a blemish on my heart



And a darkness that never fades







Heidi-Lore



January 22nd, 2007

There is a storm within me

That cannot be contained

And you are the reason

I willingly gave you the power

And you ran away with it

And left with it

A shattered heart

And I am nothing without you

What am I?

What have I become?

Since you are gone, I am nothing.

I will go on, trying to become

What you said I would

Its just very difficult, my love

As you were the reason.



HLH

Untitled 2007-1



Intermittent heartache

And despair surrounded by

Desperate desire and overwhelming longing

But the summer is long gone

And when you disappeared

So did i

And I suppose it was all a waste of time

Some random good time

To be had by you

But I remember

And I ache

you won the game, sir.



Heidi-Lore

January 22nd, 2007

Locked and Forgotten



Eternally trying to escape

The prison you are guarding

But the demons hold me down

Cannot foretell lack of consciousness

And you will not stop

The life sentence never ends

Cannot forgive, nor can I forget

The winter of our hearts never ends

And the ice cold of your heart

Your words

The chords strike deeply and harshly

There can be no spiritual evolution

Only bitter karma

And nothing can set me free

You hold this key and will not

Allow me freedom

Victory seems elusive

Lost wisdom can be haunting

No mercy, no truth, only hate

Exists in this universe you

Constructed for us.



HLL

12/15/2006